dear diaree.
you scream at me,
something incomprehensibly hurtful.
you could have whispered it
and it would have hurt me all the same.
the look in your eyes
is like a hundred regrets that i
can never go back and undo.
all the while you beat me down.
your coldness is unforgiving.
it makes me wonder what
my fifteen year old self
could have ever done so wrong.
loving you is like trying
to piece a hundred piece jigsaw together,
with only ninety-three parts to fix
and seven parts lost somewhere.
loving you is incomplete.
but when tomorrow calls,
with a brighter, lighter sunrise -
i will fall again for you.
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every day that comes and goes
loses a little big more life
than the day before.
and every second that passes makes it
more difficult to remember
those yesterdays with you.
it's like an unbridgeable gap
that has expanded without us ever realising.
a silent enemy.
unknowing to my heart,
you've crept away.
you almost escaped too,
until i caught sight of the last
fleeting glimpse of your retreating shadow.
i miss you already.
how two people who used to share everything
can now be on opposite ends of this life
with their back facing each other
and not regret
is something i cannot understand.
and if this is the way it's meant to be
than i would rather it not even be at all.
watching the moon and hearing
you sing my sweet lullaby is a thing of the
past.
so is smiling at the sound of your voice.
even if it takes a thousand eternities,
i'll be waiting for that star
that's gonna bring you back to me.
todays weather is amazingly gorgeous. happy birthday toona (: hahahs. and wakerman. whees. darling wakerman. wahh. didnt do much tday. woke up, and i finally cleared the humongous stack of papers off my table. lols. i have an obsession with sunrises. this one is gorgeous ey? lols. happy deepavali! hahahs. sharky! lols. and nikhy! whees. and alot of others too. oohs. yeaa. much loves.
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